REALIZATIONS, REINFORCEMENT, AND RECITATION

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the realization that my current situation doesn't lend itself to "following" any site religiously has been hard to swallow. unpredictability of available time and resources doesn't give one the ability to play along from a distance. dropping out of my commitment early seems the only logical move. there is no sense in attempting to follow along and post my results if it's not happening. that being said there have been some lessons learned, and some reinforced, during this break from insular gym.

the management of ones time is possibly the most important skill in this quest for improvement. i've been guilty of misallocation of this precious resource and in turn have sabotaged my ability to experience progress by cutting recovery short and increasing stress. many of the time consuming aspects of this site will be put on hold so that the main reason for it's existence can be focused on.

the theory of programming for myself and my goals has been reinforced during the last ten days. for the most part i believe there are bits and pieces of many "programs" out there that we can all benefit from. the hard part for me hasn't been as much of knowing what to do to reach my goals as it has been giving the full level of effort day in and day out. i plan to continue to attempt to present interesting combination's of work but hiding behind complexity to mask a lack of effort will end. self preservation must be replaced with self actualization.

constant evaluation of current abilities, goals, and effort combined with an honest assessment of mental health and focus, is the key to improvement. i will continue to make changes mid stream as i see necessary to promote progress. at this point i believe a stripped down version of insular gym will aid heavily in returning to the intended path. stay tuned, even though the lab has been closed to the public, the bunsen burners and beakers have been working overtime.